Dear Danielle:

Welcome back, two months since our last communication.

Key sentence: “so my guilt taunts me and makes me believe now that I am a horrible person”-

You believe that you are a horrible person. This is very unfortunate. It is a Core Belief, a belief formed early on: I am a horrible person. This belief feeds your anxiety and OCD.

When you got excited about the vacation, looking forward to something good, this Core Belief got in the way, again.

Somehow, as a child, maybe during those interrogations, you were made to believe that you were a horrible person. The feeling you had then, is the feeling you keep experiencing: fear, guilt, pain.

I have communicated with you long enough and I believe you are far from being a horrible person. You are a good person, I believe.

You are a good person, Danielle.

It only feels at times (and repeatedly) to you that you are not a good person, but this feeling is not the truth. Often what we people believe is not true. But it sure feels that way…

There is a way to place this feeling in the past, to connect it to the past events that brought it about, and in so doing, freeing your brain from placing it with current events or two year ago events. We can talk about it later, if you’d like.

Post again anytime with your thoughts and feelings.

anita