I’m so sorry you are feeling this way. I know from personal experience anxiety can lead down a very unhealthy path and really do a number on your health. One of the best ways to cope with anxiety for me was getting a dog. Adopted an older one, 4 yrs old, and he did so much for my health! Forced me to go on walks And get out there! Self love came along the way as well getting more into faith. Having routines and a church also helped my anxiety.