Most of the time I just find myself angry at the puppy. Doesn’t allow me to ever just be and relax. I know I love animals but to be honest, he literally came into my life out of no where. It was not planned. Since my parents just basically dumped him on me. Probably not the best timing for me to have a dog. But I didn’t quite choose it. Poor thing. I don’t want to feel like this about him. I am so angry at him right now. The reason I’m even awake and hardly sleep well is because he wakes me. He is an added stressor in my life. Not a benefit that most people claim to say dogs are. I truly love animals, possibly more than anyone I know. So admitting this – is very truthful and difficult. I take care of him very well. Of course. He is in NO WAY neglected. He is amazing and cute and so loving. But unfortunately to me, I do all these things for him bc I know it’s the right thing, but I just feel stress. Not love
everything feels like a chore. I eat because I have to. Make sure puppy gets energy out bc I have to. Go to work because I have to.
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