I agree with anita.
Deal with your obsessive thoughts, anxiety and depression first.
If you want to care for a child then there are programs like Big Brother.
You said so yourself, “I am nearly certain that I do not want to raise a child.”
Then don’t. Go forth to address those inner aspects that are keeping you from being emotionally healthy and make the world a better place.
Mark
Though I run this site, it is not mine. It's ours. It's not about me. It's about us. Your stories and your wisdom are just as meaningful as mine. 