Dear Anita

Sometimes I feel like I’m going crazy. I know you said I can’t go crazy when I am aware I could but. Sometimes I feel. I try not to self harm but I did in past few days. I talked to this guy who hurt me a while ago. I found out also that he slept with other girls too and he thinks that’s my fault I overcomplicated things by wanting something more from him. Also he is now in a serious relationship which makes me a … I dont know. This has destroyed me so much. I dont know if I ever recover from this.  This has changed me so much and makes me think about myself like a not valuable, not worthy, ugly and old although I’m not old technically. I feel like I will never believe someone likes me or wants to treat me well.

I do not have that much panic attacks but still feel the need to self harm. every time I talk to him or he texts me or something else. Every time I feel overwhelmed with emotions I cant cope. How do people cope with emotions? I cant do that. I feel relieved after I self harm. How to do this without it, how do people not self harm and cope with emotions? Can you do that.