If I am being honest, I believe that I tie my self worth to what I can accomplish and do for others.  I will go out of my way to help people accomplish their goals and dreams, but I have very little regard for myself. Most of the time, I live with feelings of intense hatred and disgust.

It seems that no matter what I do, it will not be enough.

I was suprised to find out while I was attending therapy sessions that someone was honest with me and said that she’d “never seen someone with such self-loathing,” which was surprising, considering that I was doing my very best to hide it.

I suppose people can see that sort of thing when I can’t.