Hi Saya,

The underlying current in your post is one of DISCONNECT. You are somehow disconnected from people, boyfriends, friends and “friends”. You don’t know how to define your feelings, or if you even have them, and so freak yourself out.

I’m glad you moved out, having room mates who ignore you would get to me after a while.

Your now ex-boyfriend sounds like gold, I wouldn’t lose him no matter how I thought I felt. Definitely keep him as a life long friend.

The fact that you can’t really process your grandfather’s death makes me want to get you into therapy.

Did something happen long ago that made you out of touch with your feelings?

Inky