Sorry to hear your still struggling with coming to terms with your experience with religion.  It is ok to reject what you have been taught without having to hold on the anger and disappointment. I apologise if I misread the feeling behind your post.

If your open to the study of language as symbols you might find that fairy tails have a great deal of wisdom. For example, the story of Cinderella changes from a story about being rescued by a prince to a story on how to work through depression.