Dear joanna:

I like your commitment to what you referred to as self improvement, seeing more, understanding more, learning more. I like your choice to face your fears, and our hurts, to continue what works.

Regarding your question, did I shift my emotions to other people, to find hope- of course I did. I  am human too, I operate the same way as others. Automatically, we do that. I used to look up at other people, as if they had the power to … pick me up from the misery I was in and deliver me to the land of happiness-ever-after. Other people were my hope for salvation. And a disappointment after disappointment… and yet, another disappointment. Lots of wasted time and energy. Misplaced hope is not a good thing.

anita