Dear joanna:

It is possible for you to no longer place your hope where there is no reasonable hope. Just not now, later. One day… you will place your hope where it belongs and you will feel at peace.

Your choice, although you were not aware of it when you posted the above, is not between hoping for this man or having no hope. There is a third choice: to find out where your hope belongs, what is reasonable to hope for.

If you perceived that third option, you would be.. reasonably hopeful.

To perceive that third option, you have to give up an old hope, one you had as a child, the hope for the love of an unloving parent.

anita