Dear calisister:

I understand about you not using this as a diary.

You wrote: “To me my mind is always distressed… I do not know of a moment when my mind is not attacking me with some ruminating negative thought”-

How about when you sleep?

When on that hike with your puppy that you shared about, when you felt love for him, was there a moment then?

When you eat a delectable Mexican meal (your favorite food)? When you dance, at times?

Any relief from distress when you talk to your sister, or anytime during reading my posts to you here?

Regarding May last year, you shared before that you find some comfort in your father’s company, none in your mother’s. Clearly the comfort you get from him is very temporary and very limited.

A child, alone, day in and day out, like you have been, that loneliness, that aloneness, reaching out, as a child naturally does, and not receiving comfort, my goodness, that does something to a child, that endless aloneness.

anita