Tell me

Please tell me, how does it feel to watch someone you bonded with turn into a stranger in a blink of an eye. And then how does it feel to find out that they married another person right after only mere four weeks of ending a relationship. Also tell me, how would then it make her feel when she bumped into social media videos of them walking down the red carpet together for their reception? All this – and then the other traumas one must have went through… still you try to be fine. But oh in that process, breaking news over another breaking news… doesn’t it just spoil your moving on game?
And then it feels terrible, you feel angry at yourself for letting someone in when they wanted, feeling the feel of betrayal, big time. All these feelings, you think of revenge, how if ever karma strikes or not as you see them happy and only you are sulking. Strange. And then also moments when you soften up and think of that person in a mellow way until you feel somewhat angry again, numb then tears flowing down your eyes, those moments too… without a sound. Then this tightening of your chest… the void you feel, fearing no one else will be able to fill it again. And your walls high up! All this… it’s a terrible feeling, wouldn’t wish this for anyone. And your chirpiness all gone, you being the quiet one among your friends.

“Tears are alright, they are the price we pay for love, care and compassion.”

From my notes