Pretended to be a man as in a boyish attitude in real life faking to be really mature and gentleman like. An expression.

I felt ive been lied to & betrayed because I was cheated on. No he didn’t explain to me why he wants out. Said he can’t lie no more and that he’s seeing another girl so he can’t continue. Didn’t meet me, blocked me everywhere so I don’t contact him either. What not.

He will be building his house next year so Just two-three days before this… he asked me for my house pictures & made me contact my architect & everything as well. And then this. Anyway

Dear Anita,

when he blocked my number  – i called him upon reaching town like he wanted me to. To let him know I’ve landed so we can meet up the next day. He blocked me instead. We were in a proper relationship where we would talk every day and stay in touch… mostly he would call. Since the past two to three nights, i called him up at night but his number remained busy, for hours the whole night… the next day he’s been busy. This has happened before as well… once i randomly called, his phone was busy and the next day when he met me, he said that he was sleeping. Now he chose another medium to talk to some other person so if i call, ill think he’s sleeping. By luck i found out that he’s on call again and the next day i said its okay, i am sorry… and he goes “no my behaviour is not okay and i need to be more honest with you” he said he will call that night to explain but he didn’t. After two days i reached his town and then he blocked me when i called him once. The next day he said “I can’t do this anymore, i need time” i asked him “do you need time or you can’t do this” he goes “i can’t do this” and also “i am guilty of seeing another girl” He didn’t want to face any emotions, so he cut off completely. Later after four days, he told me he admires me a lot but he can’t give false hopes and lie anymore. I asked him to meet so we can at least talk it out and part our ways like mature people but he said “I will have to tell her before meeting you” thats when i couldn’t take it and i said stuff to him… he said “i can’t do more wrong anymore” he said that as if after breaking hearts, he has to stay loyal to the other girl. sigh anyway.. thats all. I didn’t contact him again since then nor do i plan to of course after being shut off and feeling sort of insulted.

Year of losses and goodbyes… lost both my grandmothers… family almost broken and at the end this happened, not trying to be a victim here… trying to move on. Or maybe letting things be till i can try again.

Either he confessed with the other girl about me or got caught there but felt quitting doing wrong there by finishing here. And most probably it was return of an Ex or he was two timing all along. Heh because one day my previous ex contacted me and I told him about it to which he said “unfortunately I don’t have such issues from your side”

anyway that’s just my mind playing game with me every now & then… he left me guessing.

When I told my loved one that maybe I reacted strongly, she goes to me, really? Over texting you reacted strongly with someone who didn’t even give you a chance to shout or show shock face to face? Made sense.

Kindle, you make complete sense, mature people expect mature outcomes from others but that isn’t the case. Yes, showed colours soon… still some damage had been done, when it comes to it comes to intimacy, unfortunately I’ve a very bad last memory of it. Since he walked out and it felt animalistic about which I told him at the end and he couldn’t read that and blocked me.

I have my moments where I blame myself as well… should have played my cards right. But I was super careful, giving space, chilling out and all that. It’s not my fault if I called a few times to check if his number is still busy while he says to me that he just wants to be alone. Then be alone… I think it all started to happen so I find out the truth.

Yeah. I want to make peace with it ASAP. Hope I move on & stop thinking where I went wrong.

Love & thanks for the support.

“Until he intentionally decides to stop it” He told me “I might sound wrong but I’ve to tell her before meeting you” “I can’t do more wrong” “I can’t be more unfaithful” you know what I felt back then? That this ‘boy’ is deciding to fix things with another woman and now he will be the most honest man ever and fix life. No, he doesn’t deserve that. I hope when you say that is what he is practicing then be it. Practice away… why stop right after hurting me? My vengeance side just spoke, karma… I’ve never seen it struck people who have hurt me when it came to love relationships. Just saying… sometimes I wish I wasn’t an empathetic person or nice like people say I am. Your own loved ones end up taking advantage of you.

Anita, you are correct about not worrying about playing cards right in relationships… it shouldn’t be about that. I feel relationships shouldn’t be so complicated that we have to think of all that. Thanks, you pointing it out helped kill one bug from my head. And defining betrayal… I’ll have to screenshot that 🙂 are you a life coach or a therapist? You sound like either of the two.

Thank you for the support. Thanks for telling me I can write more when I feel like it if it helps.

Ps. Feeling vulnerable sucks. I’ve seen too much trauma this year and I helped my loved ones that now by the end, I feel I’ve hit rock bottom and need help.

Bless you all