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May 5, 2019 at 5:23 am #292417
I understand Josh. I have been there and know how painful it is. I hope you will feel better soon and something healing for you will come out of this experience.May 5, 2019 at 4:51 am #292413
And by the way, my therapist is Jerry Wise from Jerry Wise Relationship Systems. He has a YouTube channel on which he has posted some 150 free videos, check those out and if you like him, you can make contact. Even if you don’t hire him, the videos are almost thousands of free therapy. All the best!May 5, 2019 at 4:48 am #292411
I read your original post but not the following conversation. Here is what I want to say:
– Thank you soooo much for sharing your experience. You have no idea the number of people you will help by sharing your vulnerability. Self improvement is like this – two steps forward one step back. You have made a huge huge progress in these 2 years and it’s so clear from your insights and self reflection.
But you are also a human and you did get attached and that’s very normal. I have been there, I have been hard on myself and looking back I have learnt something about myself from those dates. Some self improvement happens in silo/ as solo and some happens through people experiences. Frankly, there is some self improvement there for the girl too in the way she disappeared, coz she is human too.
I am learning to accept myself even when I am not perfect in my self improvement journey. As my therapist says, being hard on myself is a part of the journey too…so let’s love and accept ourselves even when we are being hard on ourselves. It’s all okay. You sound like a wonderful person to me, also very wise and thankfully very human.
i hope other members will share more helpful insights with you.
KMay 5, 2019 at 1:14 am #292409
Dear Lost cloud,
You asked in one of your posts if others have been in the same boat.
I have been and I gave almost a decade of my life. And then one day, I got up and started moving in the other direction. No contact with him whatsoever, no response, no seeking validation, there was no real remorse or validation he could give anyway or that I could trust.
It was a difficult journey, all the time I had spent in that drama, I spent on myself. He went on with another relationship. Good for him. Doesn’t change a single bit about my decision to move on. I had a similar journey, looking for validation, looking for answers, looking for justice, then came the more difficult but sooooooo much beautiful parts of my journey – knowing about myself, what led me to and kept me in that relationship. And once the pinky rose glasses were broken, they were broken..I realize I had often been surrounded by such assholes men and women in different relationships. The journey counties…there is a lot to be learnt but these years are the best years of my life. I have felt deep shame, regret, guilt, anxiety, depression, hopelessness, anger, rage, compassion, self-love, self-forgiveness, calm, peace of mind and peace of heart.
You will find that too. Just one thing – non negotiable, no contact, leave no way for him to reach you. You will find your way.
KAugust 11, 2018 at 12:47 am #221113
Hi Elena, Happy Birthday!
I can’t unfortunateky find a way for a private message. 🙁
You could sign up on meetup.com and look for things to do near your area today and in future. I am going for a hike tomorrow so decided against the Zurich parade today..
I go to meetups – there are people of all agree groups and nationalities who want to do things together in company. There is also InterNations – they charge 70 chf a year for their membership – Internations is more active in big cities thoughAugust 9, 2018 at 2:00 pm #220895
Let’s have a party! Do you want to go to Zurich street parade?August 9, 2018 at 1:59 pm #220893
Happiest Happy Birthday Elena! Where do you live? I live in Basel. 🙂January 22, 2018 at 12:21 pm #188151
Roxysue, if you want a committed relationship and he has not already committed after two years, better leave now. It’s going to be painful, lot of heartbreak and will power to stop you from going back, but you will have to do it someday – today, six months later, one year later….
i read some where – when people tell you the first time who they are, believe them.January 14, 2018 at 6:41 am #186551
*love relationships! ?????????????❤️January 14, 2018 at 6:40 am #186549
Happy Birthday Eliana. Today is your day and atleast here in Tiny Buddha world we are all singing Happy Birthday song for you and sending you lots of wishes and peace.
I hope God listens to your prayers and sends you much love and healing. You make a difference in lives of people here.
May this be a year of healing and lose relationships for you.
loveJanuary 13, 2018 at 5:39 pm #186501
You have given some very valuable advice and insights there.
Having been there, it took me a decade to understand it was not his parents and friends treating me disrespectfully, it was him feeding them that stuff about me and feeding me the stories of their disrespect and disapproval – him staying as a victim everywhere!
You said – “
He called them to complain about you. He fed them with negative information about you.
It is not his parents. Your fiancé broke up with you” this was my experience atleast in a very similar scenario!
I hope our friend Bubba here benefits and heals and is able to move on.January 12, 2018 at 5:26 pm #186425
Dear Divani Girl,
its very late where I live and I will login later and write more or send you a private message. For now, I can tell you, I was in same situation as you minus just a little younger to you – you will heal, it will be a long arduous journey, next couple of months will be difficult, excruciatingly painful and relieving – both on different days or sometimes the same day. But you must change your number or break all contact atleast for next couple of months for your sanity, your recovery and your self esteem. I am not surprised your boyfriend wants to keep in touch..that is easy on him and tough on you. Will he do what is tough for him? No.
If you start walking away in opposite direction, even if it takes 2 years, you will be in much better place after 2 years, if you stay in this on and off limbo – it will be that much delayed, that much additional pain and a massive setback on your self respect.December 24, 2017 at 11:09 am #183435
Betratayal does hit very hard, especially to those of us who are mature coz we think we chose wisely…but you already know, ya really good riddance. Good he showed his colours relatively early…this is not the kind of person you would like to invest your maturity on…
it it still will hurt and with time you will be able to make peace with it..to some extent.
If if you have been feeling vulnerable like you mentioned, perhaps some self love and self dare could help heal better.
love and thoughts,
kDecember 13, 2017 at 11:49 am #181987
Lastly, if I were you, with all this planning that he has shared, I would not marry him even as a visible wife! Who knows when he would bring a hidden wife!December 13, 2017 at 11:43 am #181983
Thank you for sharing all these additional details and I hope writing them down helped clarify certain things to you. If you would take a day or two break, just think about some other things and read your messages here, you will know what to do. Or if you want you can write as much as you want to write about this man here, all that you know, you have seen – treat this as your diary and read it.
you do not trust this guy, there is no care and no respect, and he “says” he loves you – right now he is chasing you coz he wants something from you, and in return he wants a hidden disrespectful end for you.
He he had a hidden account, now wants a hidden marriage and tomorrow if you will question him on his first marriage, it may humiliate him as well!!!
its really your life – you will have to live with the consequences of your choices. You know how easy it is to divorce in your culture – a hidden marriage with a man against his mother’s wish, when he can’t go against his mother openly, with no respect, care and trust and no right to even question basic things – for that would humiliate him.
i think I don’t have anything to add to this thread that you don’t now know already.
all the best,