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  • #291683

    anita
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    Dear Josh:

    “I’ve began looking into assertiveness training videos and lectures… It’s beginning to feel like I’m being punished for things I’ve never done- when I try being as good a person to others as I can be every day of my life”-

    The reason you haven’t been an assertive person is not only a lack of knowledge and training (some simple acts of assertion, such as suggesting a woman online to meet in person, or stating: “I want this!”, do not require knowledge or training), but that you believed at an early age that an assertive person is a bad person, and you wanted to be good.

    This is why your  assertive training will be difficult- sometimes you will feel like a bad person when you aim at behaving assertively, and that will feel distressing and cause you to want to give up on changing your behavior from passive to assertive.

    I think you mentioned that you feel punished because you felt bad behaving assertively, and we do tend to imagine that some power  out there will punish us for having been bad.

    If you somehow change that core belief that being assertive means being a bad person, that will make your learning how to be assertive so much easier.

    How are you feeling today, regarding the woman this thread is about?

    anita

     

    #291687

    Josh
    Participant

    Yes and thank you. I’ve begun implementing a slightly different demeanor today. Trying to be more confident and asking for things or for something different at every opportunity. I’m going to make these changes become more of a focus, and be sure that the changes stick.

    As far as today- when I woke up, I was fine for about 5 or 6 seconds. Then I could literally feel a weight on my chest and mind entering right before she came into to my mind. Then once she was there, she’s remained there and that’s where I’m still at.

    Knowing she’s not right for me, doesn’t want me, that she’s moved right along, or that I’ll never see or talk to her again has done absolutely nothing to keep her off my mind. Theere isn’t 5 seconds that can go by whe my mind doesn’t drift back to her. She not worth it at all, and I think even she’d agree. But it’s almost like a toothache at this point.

     

    #291691

    anita
    Participant

    Dear Josh:

    Accept that toothache then, don’t resist it, don’t fight it, don’t try to talk yourself out of it. Let it be. Practice this then, letting that ache be without thinking about it any which way- feel it, don’t think it. Let me know later how did with this exercise, will you?

    anita

    #291829

    Josh
    Participant

    I did as you suggested. I still feel the tightness in my chest and almost nausea in my stomach. Still am not eating very much and it’s fatiguing me. Last night I did ok at pushing her aside in my head and I woke up feeling ok knowing I was able to do that, assuming I could do it again today. I haven’t been able to, and she’s been on the forefront of my mind again.

    #291833

    anita
    Participant

    Dear Josh:

    A few days ago you wrote the following: “there’s so much before the age of about 16 that I just (don’t) remember. I remember some big events and small bits and pieces of things, but generally I can’t recall most of my childhood”. When we experience a lot of emotional pain in childhood, on and on, those emotional memories do not go away when we are adults, they come to the surface when events in our adult lives trigger those old emotional memories.

    So you don’t remember your childhood, but you are experiencing now the same emotional experience you had then, and so, these emotional memories are telling you what happened then. You wrote in that post, April 25, I think it was, regarding the one-date woman this thread is about: “I think my soul has been yearning for the connection her and I had that night… getting a taste of what we shared that night”- minus the sexual element, your current yearning for this woman is the same yearning you had for your mother and/ or your father as a child, on and on and on.

    “I still feel the tightness in my chest and almost nausea in my stomach. Still am not eating very much and it’s fatiguing me”- this is what you experienced as a child.. and forgot. As a child your chest was tight, you felt nauseous in your stomach, you didn’t want to eat and you were fatigued. These are old emotional/ physical memories that have come to the surface of your experience.

    What to do now?

    If you wait long enough, distract, persist in a exercise routine and especially if you meet a new woman, the experience you have now will move below the surface once again. You will feel better, the chest not tight, hunger will return. But sooner or later, the same yearning for connection you had as a child, a strong yearning because you were alone so often, not connected, this yearning will return to the surface. The only way to no longer feel this way, and no longer find yourself again, and again, in a similar situation is to heal from that extreme loneliness of your childhood.

    It takes quality psychotherapy to do that. And a willingness to experience this pain in the context of reviewing your childhood. When this is done, over time, you free your present experience from your past experience a whole lot, being able to experience now something different from what you experienced then.

    anita

     

    #291843

    Josh
    Participant

    Wow. Thank you again for the time and insight Anita. It really is opening my eyes.

    About psychotherapy: do you know what or can entail? The thought makes me kind of nervous but I think it’s just because I know nothing about it. Do you believe it can help me? Is it expensive? Is it possible to benefit from it without having to rely on medication?

    #291847

    anita
    Participant

    Dear Josh:

    You are welcome. When I mentioned psychotherapy I didn’t mean medication. A psychiatrist is a medical doctor prescribing medication, drugs, that is. Most psychotherapists are not medical doctors, so they don’t prescribe drugs.

    Also, I wrote “quality psychotherapy” because there is plenty that is not quality, that is a waste of money and sometimes harmful. It takes the right psychotherapist to make the process of healing successful. It takes a competent, professional, hard working, dedicated, honest therapist to make a difference, and it takes a therapist who went through a good enough of healing in his or her personal life.

    A quality psychotherapist is not  one who just sits there time after time, nodding, appearing like he is listening, maybe says something once in a while and then says: our time is up, at the end of 50 minutes or so. A quality therapist will get to know you in the first few sessions, then give you his evaluation of you and a plan, including objectives and ways to meet those objectives successfully. He will teach you skills along the way, give you homework from session to session, so the work is not strictly done in the 50 minutes only. My therapist gave me homework from session to session in the form of handouts to read and fill in, he sent me guided meditations to listen to (via email)- he emailed me homework assignment after the sessions via email, that is, he used time for which he was not  paid to do so and he based the homework assignment on the latest session we had, figuring out what it needs to be. Then the following session we went over the homework assignment. He also went over the 50 minutes or so, most of the time, he didn’t mind to go over when he didn’t have another appointment next.

    It can be expensive, it may not be, a sliding scale is when the cost is determined according to your income. Some health insurance policies pay for part of psychotherapy (if your therapist evaluates you in the first few sessions, determining you suffer from a particular condition, that specified condition may be covered under your health insurance).

    anita

    #291877

    Josh
    Participant

    You’d suggest this, anita?

    #291881

    anita
    Participant

    Dear Josh:

    Do I suggest psychotherapy? Absolutely but I can’t emphasize enough how not-all-therapists-are-created-equal, how important it is to choose a therapist well, to first know that just because a therapist is certified doesn’t mean he or she is good at it. Some hurt their clients. But with a good-enough therapist, if you persist, my goodness, the difference that it can make!

    anita

    #292185

    Josh
    Participant

    Do you have any suggestions on how to vet therapists beforehand, Anita?

    I went on a second date with the second girl Tuesday. It went well and we had a good time, but there wasn’t much of a connection. Just the time we spent together was enough to wipe the original girl from my mind the rest of the night, and most of the next day. But that night she came back to mind, and today it’s been much much worse. I don’t think I’ll take her out again, and I am now out of dating prospects at the moment.

    #292245

    anita
    Participant

    Dear Josh:

    I wish there was a connection between you and the woman on the second date. Regarding evaluating therapists beforehand, you can google therapists in your area and go to their websites. If you want you can copy and paste for me parts of what they present in their websites and I will be glad to give you my input.

    Also, see on their websites if they offer a free first session. Following reading what you will copy and paste from a particular therapist’s website I will be able to help you with questions to the therapist on that first (hopefully) free session.

    I hope you feel better soon, you’ve been having a difficult time lately. Post here anytime and I will be glad to reply to you.

    anita

    #292411

    Kindle
    Participant

    Josh,

    I read your original post but not the following conversation. Here is what I want to say:

     

    – Thank you soooo much for sharing your experience. You have no idea the number of people you will help by sharing your vulnerability. Self improvement is like this – two steps forward one step back. You have made a huge huge progress in these 2 years and it’s so clear from your insights and self reflection.

    But you are also a human and you did get attached and that’s very normal. I have been there, I have been hard on myself and looking back I have learnt something about myself from those dates. Some self improvement happens in silo/ as solo and some happens through people experiences. Frankly, there is some self improvement there for the girl too in the way she disappeared, coz she is human too.

    I am learning to accept myself even when I am not perfect in my self improvement journey. As my therapist says, being hard on myself is a part of the journey too…so let’s love and accept ourselves even when we are being hard on ourselves. It’s all okay. You sound like a wonderful person to me, also very wise and thankfully very human.

     

    i hope other members will share more helpful insights with you.

     

    take care,

     

    K

     

     

    #292413

    Kindle
    Participant

    And by the way, my therapist is Jerry Wise from Jerry Wise Relationship Systems. He has a YouTube channel on which he has posted some 150 free videos, check those out and if you like him, you can make contact. Even if you don’t hire him, the videos are almost thousands of free therapy. All the best!

    #292415

    Josh
    Participant

    Thank you very much, Kindle. It’s been a struggle that’s seemed to trigger a depression that hasn’t gotten much better since it happened, so I will definitely check out Jerry Wise.

    #292417

    Kindle
    Participant

    I understand Josh. I have been there and know how painful it is. I hope you will feel better soon and something healing for you will come out of this experience.

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