Dear Anita,

Not doubting. Okay maybe a bit, yes. But I can understand not feeling anger anymore and getting rid of it, completely. For the past year, since I discovered meditation and self improvement I have been working on it and I must say I changed a lot. I forgave my father and have no resentment to him, I also forgave and feel no anger towards my grandparents who wanted to take my (my father’s) house from me after his death and they didn’t hesitate from doing anything which made me sick at that time. They didn’t succeed, they can *only* live in this house till their death, I allowed them to and I live in other city now and I must admit I don’t even care now what they did or tried to do. I was angry and resentful at that time, I felt hurt but now I see it’s all in them. The anger, the greed, the evil, it was all in them, I just stood there. Do you know what I mean? They tried to hurt me, take away my home, used to call me and offend me (I was 17 then) but that didn’t have to do anything with me personally. They were just greedy and evil, wanted money and things, and I at that time allowed them to affect me and to bring me down. Now they still “hate” me and I pity them, because I’ve travelled a great journey since then, of understanding, forgiving, letting go of anger, and seeing things, and they’re 80 years old and they still are in the same place they’ve been all their lives. Also I’m the only one left after their son and they prefer hating me over actually seeing me. They have to lie when someone asks about their granddaughter  because they’re ashamed. They are probably aware I would come visit them, I did many times but they used to make a scene, and offend me so I stopped. What’s the benefit of that in the long term. I just pity them, they’re miserable people. Anger hurts the person who feels it, I know it sounds obvious but I never want anger to destroy me or hurt me that way, I don’t want to hurt myself feeling anger towards other people. That’s why I started working on it.  I don’t know if it’s helpful. I believe in getting rid of anger and it is possible. There are easier kinds of anger and there are much worse ones to fight.