Kittycat100,

As someone much older than you, I am practicing letting go of things that I cannot control.  Read the Serenity Prayer for that.

I know that is easy to say and hard to do.  It’s a practice.  You can spend your time and energy dwelling on the worst case scenarios of your life or you can focus your energy towards what feeds your joy, being in service to people and practicing gratitude.

If you find it impossible to even to attempt those things then it sounds like you can benefit from professional help.

I know that having a community, friends and family, a tribe of people who are positive and support you helps else I would dwelling too much in my head with such dark thoughts.

Mark