Thank you for your input.

I gave him my word, and I completely destroyed it. I feel so much guilt because I know that he opened up to me and it was not easy.

I honestly wish that I gave him more, because everytime I tried, it felt great.

I feel as if I ruined his life and he made that clear. The thing is that I actually want to be in his life but I’m just not in the mental state (sounds like an excuse, I know).

It just irks me thinking that I’ll find someone else because I feel like what we had is left extremely unfinished.

I also see how it’s selfish to just say I want to be single and not commit, but I think it may be the timing in my life.

I want him to love. If it turns out to be another woman, I’ll have to accept it. But if it can be me, I would like to give that back. That’s why I mainly ended it. Yes I’m hanging onto being single, I just know deep down that by us taking time apart, I’ll be ready.

The first time I ended things, when we got back together I felt that I have changed in 100 ways, but it’s takes time really be settled and ready. Everyday I’m closer to being a happier woman and open minded to dating him, and I truly feel that this time will bring me there, I’ve just felt an immense amount of progress, and I don’t wanna stop.