Hi MRZ,

I think you are psyching yourself out, and letting fear destroy things. Overanalyzing and comparing yourself can drive you crazy. Don’t go there. He obviously loves you very much. He was with you for five years, and he proposed to you..not her. He wants and chose you because he wants you. You can’t think the worst, because it will come true. Think positive and positive things will happen. I have seen too many amazing relationships destroyed due to fear and insecurity, anxiety by one of the partners. With fear, you can’t have dreams. What I suggest is quality Psychotherapy to work on your issues of insecurity, self esteem, etc before marrying this man, because all these negative thoughts affect your mood, emotions and behavior and he does not deserve that. I would also look into self help books on anxiety in relationships, etc. I hope you will post with any thoughts. x