Dear Cali Chica:

I am so glad to be reading from you today. So glad to read you are still doing what is right.

Remember I suggested to you that you see the bigger picture? That picture includes the people who are not yet here, that is, your future children.

It is difficult to see them because you don’t know how they look like… they don’t exist yet. It is easy to see the smaller picture, that one woman who was in your life from your very beginning.

You wrote in your last post: “The reason I faltered so much was because I WAS right in front of her, falling prey to her manipulation time and time again”- the smaller picture is having her in your life, seeing her, hearing her. To see her, to hear her is to fall prey to her.

The smaller picture is that of your mother, a guilty woman, one who harmed you and your sister so very much, one who viciously betrayed the trust the two of you had in her, one who preys on you.

The bigger picture is that of your children, innocent people, the ones who will trust in you, ones who will need your love and well-being.

Be here this day and every day not for the guilty but for the innocent.

Be here for your husband who never preyed on you, be here for your patients. There are many people in the big picture who need you to be well.

anita