Dear Mark

Thank you for that, I will definitely try that. I am very open to be forgiving, to not feel anger whether it is justified sometimes or not, I try to not feel it, because it is also a thing that she taught me, and now I feel this anger towards her so I want to not feel it. I dont want to be like her.

I also recently thought about this anger towards kids. I control it and I know I like them, but sometimes this anger comes. I do not know why, it is not justified in any way, just a kid, not doing anything wrong, and I get angry. It’s not a person who did something to me, not a reason for me to feel anger, yet I sometimes feel it. This anger is just empty, useless, I do not understand it, I do not get anything from it, I don’t have any grounds to feel it, it doesn’t bring anything. Just an illogical, inconsistent anger. How to overcome it? How to understand it, I try really really hard. I never yell or *get angry* at them, I just feel it, why do I feel it. I am damaged and automatic to feel it. Can I ever fix this?