Thank you both for your responses. I had a few days of clarity after and felt good about everything and we have been enjoying life happily.

Qeirdly enough at at this moment I feel anxiety creeping in. I am wondering if we will have enough money. If I will ever achieve what I “want with education” as I will have to do it in a foreign language (Spanish) which is not my mother to gue.

Then it latched on. Will he ever push himself more than he has done? Will he ever achieve more? What if he never earns more? Will he have enough to live? Can we survive on minimal wages? What do I do if I find others attractive and those who have more muscles? “Better jobs”?

But resllt all i want to do is kiss him and tell him I’m scared. So that’s what I’m going to do I stead of letting this fear form too much of my happiness.