Dear vaishu:

Reads like you are having a difficult time and I hope your life gets better soon.

You wrote “I guess I’m schizophrenic”- what do you mean by that?

Regarding having not trusting others, that does happen when our trust is betrayed. You can’t force yourself to trust strangers, neither should you. Get to know a person and after some time and experience, then decide whether that person is trustworthy. After all not everyone are trustworthy. Many are not. So we have to be cautious, get to know the person over time.

anita