Thankyou for your responses…I have already put the ball in motion for therapy and am now in waiting…it could take up to 6 weeks. I don’t think I am willing to put up with the relationship as it is…although I completely agree his head is not able to deal with a relationship, he managed for 4 years and he’s just dropped me without any care it seems..I’m feeling used and discarded, there is no relationship anymore which is why I’m so confused as to what he’s doing by contacting me in the ways he is. I would like closure as it’s not officially ended but I’m guessing I’m not going to get it. Thankyou Anita for your reply, in response to your questions…he doesn’t use drugs at work and he works on various building sites where unfortunately many people use drugs recreationally…they do random drug tests on site but he moves around a lot so he’s got lucky so far…he’s a functioning drug addict who will never hit rock bottom and be out on the streets because his dad supports him by putting a roof over his head and then his wages support his ‘comfortable’ lifestyle. I’m trying so hard to move on but his texts and calls are making me stuck and confused, deep down I miss him and want the communication but I know next time I am going to have to just ignore him. I know some of these issues lie with me allowing this, I am trying to address them and take care of myself but I’m really struggling. On a positive note, I have stopped waking up at 3am every night and have my appetite back so this is progress right?! Thankyou for your support and advice, reaching out to people with a non biased viewpoint is very helpful.                                                           L