Hi anita, thank you for the well wishes.

No, I don’t want to be this monster that I’ve turned into of course. I am taking steps to change myself… I went into therapy, am learning how to stop negative thinking. I’m no longer focusing on silly little things people do or say to me, but on my work… I’m also trying to help out other people and listen to their problems (really helps you to distract your mind off of the breakup) and also spending more time with my family, which is something I’ve neglected to do since I had moved out.

By wanting to accept, I mean I just want to accept the breakup peacefully…. currently I’m fighting so hard to be happy for him, that he stood up for himself and he gets a chance to really find someone better for him… but I also can’t shake off feeling of hurt, sometimes bitterness and sadness whenever friends come and tell me that he seems to have moved on or started seeing new people. I don’t want to be possessive. I want to let him go and be happy.

Maybe I just need time to cope with the grief. Maybe in time I can truly be happy for him with no hard feelings.