Hi Anita,

Hope you are well and that more smiles have been in your life 🙂

I mentioned earlier that I will be embarking on a 4 mths overseas trip and here is an update that I have started on this trip! 🙂 It has been pretty good so far, I feel comfortable and settled in quite nicely. It is a beautiful place and I enjoy the freedom of my own space. It is quite a relief to come back to a quiet space and to have a nice kitchen where I can cook my own food.

However, I have this nagging anticipatory anxiety – that it seems that things are too good and I wonder when I will start feeling anxious.  It seems weird not to be anxious as things seems to be better than I imagined it would be. It is as though I prepared for alot of negative things to happen but now that the negative things are not happening, I feel weird. And that wondering and worrying is starting to make me anxious.

I met someone who is staying at the same hostel as me and she seems a lot more anxious than me. I felt that some of her anxiety probably rubbed off me and it contributed to my anxiety. It seems like if I feel anxious, I might feel better? But yet as I start to feel anxious then I wonder if the anxiety will become too overwhelming.

Am I too used to feeling anxious that calm is a strange feeling?

I want to enjoy my time here and I think it is enjoyable and will be enjoyable.. but how do I shake off this anxiety?

not-so-lost-star who is feeling anxious :/