Dear Anita

Thank you for understanding me. Yes that was exactly the case, I could as well ask this question to anyone, but I guess I wanted the honesty I could really count on, so I asked you. Thank you for seeing this.

So I’m punishing myself and I feel a relief because I did to myself what “I deserved”. I understand this. Also when you are saying to not blame myself for those thoughts I kind of feel more calm. I don’t hate those thoughts then.  Hating them and wanting to get rid of them does not help. So I accept that those thoughts come because they are a result of a something. And I believe you when you are saying it will weaken and weaken. Thank you for this.