Dear Anita

Thank you very much for being kind to me, for not telling me to stop hurting myself. I am really surprised you never tell me, even in a gentle way, to at least *try* to stop doing this. My mother used to tell me when I was in high school and had acne (as a result of picking and scratching my skin)  “what do you have on this face again”, “what did you do again to this face”she once read chocolate caused acne and there it started “you have something on your face again, did you eat chocolate again” “I told you to not eat those foods, why did you ” etc. She was so angry at me I caused it and looked bad. She was angry at me for looking bad. If I could “try” to not do this I would definitely do.

I feel so bad, I keep having those terrible nightmares. I barely sleep lately.  That means a lot that you care about me. Maybe I’ll try to leave my face alone since today, my friend came for couple of days.