It’s weird because I didn’t really think of it that way.  I know those experiences of being spanked or yelled at were a bit frightening in the moment, but I didn’t see it as a contributor to my anxiety. What you also said about people being aggressive to me and in result, I’m aggressive to myself is also something I never thought of. I guess all these years, I’ve been projecting how people treated me and treated myself that way.

I’m glad I’m gone from school and don’t have to be around the people who treated me horribly. And while, I’m still with my parents and I forgive them because they weren’t intentionally hurting me, I think it would’ve been better if I wasn’t spanked or yelled at when I was younger.