Thank you Anita.

When I think back I can see that my school life has had a serious impact on my adult life. I was bullied for years and didn’t make friends until I was 18. I guess you could say that I have trust issues and/or I fear abandonment as this is what happened in the past. I know in general I feel inadequate and unworthy – not just of life in general, but of the people in my life. I never feel good enough and I often wonder why my friends are my friends. What’s making them stick around? I don’t know. I don’t think highly of myself.

I guess my lack of being able to be vulnerable stems from these past events. I keep people at a distance because I’m not good enough. I am not worthy of their kindness. I am not deserving of having someone be there for me.