Dear DeepSoul:

No, you weren’t born that way, very unlikely. Unlike what your mother told you, you were not “always been this way.”

How do I know, you may ask. After all I don’t know you more than what you shared in this thread. I know because a baby is born care free, not withholding anything, not keeping things to herself. This is nature.

And so, I don’t need to know you much so to know that if you are human, then you are like other humans in this basic way: born not withholding anything.

You wrote that nothing significant happened in your childhood to cause you to withhold information, to keep your emotions to yourself- well, being rejected doesn’t necessarily take a dramatic memorable form, such as being beaten up with a whip that draws blood. Rejection could have been ignoring you when you cried, ignoring you when you shared anything that was inconvenient to your mother to hear, or telling you that you shouldn’t feel this way, or responding to your sharing in an annoyed way.

These are less memorable yet powerful rejections.

anita