I think sometimes when I go through my own emotional struggle with a partner I wonder if he felt the same way and nobody was ever there to help him and this makes me sad. It also makes me sad that now he does not have any friends, a relationship with his wife or any of the kids.  I also feel really sad that I never had a chance to feel that protection or love from a father or even have a slight idea of what that feels like and then I just feel like i’ll never be able to control my emotions and be in a healthy relationship.

this all breaks my heart.