Dear Anita

Well I kind of understand but not really. I know how it is to feel guilty of something that seems illogical. Therefore a concept that I would (or you would) not be guilty of (this particular thing) is hard to understand. When someone says I am not guilty of having thin hair I cant understand it. I have thin hair, it’s a fact, someone repeatedly told me it’s definitely not a quality. It’s deeply rooted, how can I remove it. No one accused me of having been born with my feet in wrong place so I definitely know one cannot be guilty of that. Having said that I can relate to your feeling of guilt in that matter.

I recently thought about things that are rooted so deep. Like for last 12 years I didn’t want a desk in my room because I hated doing homework. Like seeking relief in activities or people who are bad and we know it but it gives relief like nothing else. Can we really remove it so that “the feeling” doesn’t work anymore? Can I remove the guilt I feel, just by justifying it somehow and understanding.I don’t know if I understand it correctly. I know you don’t mean just understanding, it’s more but it’s really hard.