Dear Yeshoda:

Your last sentence in your recent post: “I want to forget everything that happened”.  I don’t think we can forget bad experiences. They get glued to our brain. The logic of it, of the brain remembering bad experiences, is to see to it that they don’t happen again.

You are angry at him and you love him all at the same time (you shared in your original post). You love him sometimes because you still hope, sometimes. And you are angry at him because he lied to you, for so long.

The hope you still have at times, will you tell me about this hope?

anita