Hi Sam,

You literally self sabotaged your relationship ~ twice!

I think you need to see a therapist (don’t we all!). Go see one with the intention of working on your anxiety.

That said, maybe he wasn’t the guy for you and you would have broken up anyway, even if you didn’t have anxiety. But you won’t know in your relationships going forward if you made the right decision regarding staying or leaving until you are calm and strong within yourself.

Best,

Inky