LifeUnravelled,

I am sorry about the pain you are experiencing again.  I encourage you to not to have any romantic relationships for a while in order to learn to be on your own.  I ignored this wisdom and left behind pain and squandered time.  It IS painful and lonely to do that but it is NECESSARY.  It some ways it is meditation in action but instead of sitting with yourself but you are living with yourself.  I don’t discount your fear but that acronym means False Evidence Appearing Real.  What is the worse case?  You will not die.  Your children will not die.  You can only find yourself and find ways of being self sufficient, emotionally and otherwise.  You will show your children how to be independent, stand up for themselves and face life.

Make sense?

Mark