Dear alyahB_:

At the end of your post, you asked: “what is it I need?”

At the beginning of your post you answered it: “a support system… close friend”, to not be “alone and confused”. We are social animals, we need other people. We need to communicate with others.

When I communicate with another person about things that are meaningful to me, as I express yourself to the other person, I am developing my thoughts as I speak (or type), getting in touch with my feelings and becoming more and more myself.

When confused, communicating this way takes away the confusion.

“Who do I seek out?” you asked. My answer: someone decent, someone honest and trustworthy so that the two of you will be honest with each other and worthy of each other’s trust.

anita