Yes I will take all my children with me when I leave. This is an abusive volatile and unstable man and I will fight in the courts to make sure that I have full custody of the daughter we share. I do not want her to be abused or neglected. This will unfortunately make me a single mother 3, something I have dreaded and part of why I convinced myself I should stay with him even though he did not play the parental role that I needed and I essentially was single anyway. Thank you for saying and reminding me about the possibilities of positives when I leave. I have been emotionally tormented by him so much that I am now myself believing that with three children I will never find someone to love me and be loyal without abuse. I feel used and abused and discarded. I don’t even recognize myself in the mirror. Our communication has gone sour and he is now threatening to hurt me if I do not let him see his little girl because today  is her birthday. He is going back to verbal abuse now telling me that he’s totally done, sending me screenshots of his communication with other women, and calling me a hoe. Classic narcissist abuse patterns at the end of a relationship. But it still kills me. I do sometimes wonder what man will want me with two kids by one man, a third kid by some other man? I’m so torn and broken. I really don’t know where to start with the repair. Should I read a book? Attend domestic violence support group? I’m so lost. If it weren’t for you and me being able to communicate with someone I don’t know where I would be right now. Thank you