abubin,

I believe you when you say she’s always on your mind, no matter what you do. It must be challenging constantly remembering something you want to forget.

Connecting with other people in your life is a good way to start getting your mind off her, even if that isn’t happening yet. Have you opened up to your friends or colleagues or son about what you’ve been feeling?

As far as feeling angry, I respectfully disagree with Eliana. I imagine you don’t want to feel angry and don’t like feeling angry, but it’s how you felt then and maybe still feel now. Do you feel better having expressed your anger?

P.S. I really enjoy bowling with my dad and brother, so I think it’s a great way to spend your time, even though I’m biased.