Hello Pearl,

Can I ask what kind of thoughts keep popping in your mind?  I too was a cutter for many years and yes, it is a bad coping mechanism.  It was the only way I knew to deal with the emotional pain I was going through and yes, it did help in the release of emotions, but then afterward, I always ended up feeling more shame and more embarrassed.  It is not the answer.  You have too get to the root of your depression and find ways to release emotions in a more positive way.  Have you talked with a therapist/counselor?