I always have had the fear of being left alone all my life… It originated long back due to some family members, friends and later love interests leaving me behind.

When i met him, I was cautious not to fall very deep in love, obviously i could not control that but still I had my doubts…

After three months of being together, He confronted me and told me that he will not leave. After that at various occasions….  numerous occasions should be the correct term he told me that again and again, even when i was not afraid anymore.

Yes it was cruel of him, but this relationship was his first relationship (He is a single mother child and he told me he always felt that she is his responsibility so he wanted to focus on providing her a good life but he said that when we met, he just fell for me) and somehow I felt that maybe if he goes out with someone else he will realise that what we have is far more precious and he would not do so again.

I feel so stupid right now.

I stopped myself from asking him not to talk to anybody else because i felt i might fall in the same category of women men run away from….clingy and possessive. and also even though i don’t want to admit it but because i felt if i constrict him, he might leave.

you know the funny thing was that he told me he isn’t leaving even when i recently visited him.

I was a smart girl, but when it comes to him I have been really dense!!!