Anita you have been very very helpful in pointing out all the things that went wrong, I cannot begin to tell you how much at ease that makes me feel. I truly feel like it is best that he is on his own, not because ‘oh! that serves him right’ but because he needs to know freedom in a way he hasn’t before.

There are numerous things wrong with me and I need to work on them before I commit to anybody as well.

I felt bad that he is not communicating, now I feel that even if he wants to, he wouldn’t. And for the most parts, he doesn’t want to as well and to be him right now frankly sucks, I hope things work out for him. I wish I could help but no I need to help myself and he needs to help himself.

I cannot begin to tell you, Anita, how I am feeling inside. A few days ago there was massive confusion and storm of pain, hurt ego, anger and what not, I feel calmer now. I feel like I am ready to focus on me more confidently.

I am going to disappear from his life as in entirely no texts, not even asking any questions, nothing. He reaches out, I will talk like a friend and constantly remind myself that I am still in the repairment mode.

Thank You, You are doing an excellent job here. It is self less and pure. I respect you a lot.