Dear Cat:

* This is a response to your post before last (I just noticed you sent another). Will read and reply to the most recent one later, maybe soon but maybe in sixteen hours)

I read your emails to your sister: honest, courageous, loving, not at all harsh. You wrote/ did nothing wrong in the sending of these emails.

What I believe is happening is this: what you wrote to her means a lot to you, but not to her. She read and soon enough during her reading she wasn’t paying attention. It became difficult or unpleasant to follow. Some things rang true, from past conversations with you, other things maybe not. Soon enough though, she didn’t feel like reading. She put it aside as something unpleasant to attend to, maybe later.

What you wrote to her meant a lot to you because of where you are in your mind. She is in a different place and for her, what you shared, doesn’t mean a lot to her. It is probably a burden to her.

I don’t think there is any message at all that will help her. Like she told you, it is your voice she sometimes at least, finds comfort in, not your message. Maybe certain words, certain short sentences that she likes to hear, nothing complicated (for her), no long sentences, developing thoughts.

“I love you, sis”, something like that,  that could be enough, all that she needs. More that that is too much, undesirable, on her part.

anita