Dear anita,

Thank you for taking the time to read and reply. I feel I have had an inferiority complex for a while. For example, I would achieve something very well but would do average/not good the next time. So therefore, it has to be luck that I was able to achieve success the first time. Or I get a job that was hard to get (like too many candidates for one job application), I was just merely very lucky to get it (not because of my skills, interaction, interview, etc). Or if my parents/family able to provide food/shelter/clothing for me during childhood (versus some other children who are unable to have the same things/opportunities), I was just lucky to have such family. If I am able to spend so much money on dental/medical health, I was just lucky I was able to work overtime/extra shifts to save up enough money to do so (and I was just fortunate that I didn’t have any other expenses for family so that I can just focus on my own dental/medical expenses).

Basically,  I attribute a lot of success to luck/things outside my control that I am fortunate enough to lead a normal, average life. So I fear that if I didn’t have the family that provided for me so much or the luck that I was able to graduate school/get a job, able to pay for living expenses (i.e. car, rent, dining out) etc etc, I would be unable to live this same fortunate life if it was “just me in the beginning.” Like do I even have the qualifications and skills and am I good enough to be deserving of everything I currently have? Why are so many others have so many misfortunes when I am able to live a average life? Am I good enough/deserving enough? What did I do to deserve it?

Thank you very much for reading!