Dear Maya55:

You asked: “am I stuck like this forever or can I be fixed and be normal?”-

I don’t know of anyone being normal. Every person is functional in some areas and less functional in other areas. I don’t know about the verb fix either, don’t think of you as broken.

It is very, very common to have a mix of empathy and anger starting in childhood. This mix gets imprinted in the brain and affects our behavior throughout life. There is a way to re-learn and change behaviors, yes, some behaviors are more difficult to change than others. This one is one of the more difficult. It takes time and effort, persistence and patience and may require the help of a capable therapist.

So yes, if you can afford it or find a way to have psychotherapy with a capable, hard working therapist (not all therapists are these things), then it is a good idea.

I hope you post again, anytime.

anita