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Christy
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I agree with what Peter said. When you believe you are your ego you are very rigid in your thinking. For example here in the US right now politics is a hot button topic. Politicians on both side of the fence are often caught doing wrong but their supporters will continue to support them anyway because they identify as their political party. If they were to change their stance their sense of self would be threatened.

Being no one means not adhering to any labels. I may have politicians that I consider better candidates but if they are found doing wrong it is very easy for me to say “I do not support that and by default I no longer support them.” This leads to rational decision making rather than letting my need to be someone dictate my choices. I also do not hang out on news websites all day waiting to see “what the other side does next.” as there is no “other side” for me because I do not adhere strictly to one side or the other.

I no longer identify as anything. I still go to the movies from time to time but I am not a “movie goer.” If I want I can watch a sporting event but that does not make me a “sports fan.” I can prepare a meal without being a “cook.” I still have beliefs but I do not identify with them as Peter said. I still have wants but I don’t NEED to have them fulfilled. For instance if I go out to eat I might want to eat at X place but others might want to eat at Y place. If I do not get what I want and end up at Y place, that’s just as well as ending up at X place. Before ego death I might have said “but I like X place better and now I have to go to Y place, it’s not fair!” What’s not fair? An experience is an experience.

We love to both put labels on things and identify with those labels. Do you repair cars? You’re a “mechanic.” “Do you read a lot of books? You’re a “book worm.” Then we identify with those labels. “I read a lot of books so I must be a book worm.” this leads to “All the other book worms are reading THIS book. I have no interest but I must read that book too or I’m not a book worm.” You now must read a book you have no interest in as your identity demands it. This leads to misery.

The day of my ego death started like any other. I was “Christy” I knew who Christy was or at least I thought I did. I had to adhere to all the beliefs of Christy. If another challenged those beliefs I had to defend them. Then in a blink of an eye all that was gone. At first I was terrified. I had no idea what had just happened and if not for an internet search done after the fact I still would not know. However as I get used to my new way of being I’m a lot more happy and at peace now than I ever was before. In my opinion ego is poison.