Dear Jane:

Best of course, is that you share this with a capable and empathetic therapist, in the context of safe therapy sessions.

I think it is a good idea that you see a therapist or a counselor, perhaps one is available in or through your school. What you share with the counselor/ therapist must be confidential (make sure of it before you share). Ask the counselor all the questions you have.

I hope you resolve in your mind what happened, that you understand what happened best you can, that you learn from it. Wishing you well.

anita