Hi Sapnap3,

i wouldn’t take his behavior personally. His feelings have nothing to do with you or your actions. If he didn’t realize what an awesome catch you are and is still waffling about his commitment to you I don’t think this will change.

You deserve to be loved and cherished just for being you and for giving your love to him. If you want marriage and he doesn’t then you should walk away. You don’t want the same thing, the struggle will just continue on and your relationship will go nowhere.

I suggest you see a therapist and take their advice about your situation. They will advocate for you and they will have an outside perspective on your relationship, which you need.

It’s sad when we love someone who doesn’t truly love us back. Hoping they will change won’t work. Accept your reality and make a new life for yourself and only invite in people who cherish and respect you. I don’t suggest you live with your Mom. Love her from afar.

You are worth a commitment and you will find someone that will give you this. Your boyfriend can’t see this and probably never will. Let him go. Your destiny awaits you. Have faith in your higher power.

Going around in circles will only waste your time while your true love walks right past.

Hugs, T