That is it dear friend, I really don’t know what my gut is saying. A part of me wants to walk away but another part of me thinks of all the beautiful things we have together. Our memories and his kindness. I think I keep pushing him away by contacting him so I don’t know what the hell is going on in my mind. I think my mind is quickly making a wall around me to save me from hurt but instead it’s hurting me more. Thank you for your prayers.

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