Dear Cali Chica:

I just read your post before last and the most recent one. You wrote in the first: “the biggest decision I have ever made- to stop contact with my mother. I have not once felt anxious over it, or doubted it”- I experienced lots of doubting and anxiety over it and that prolonged my healing process. I hope you continue to not doubt it as it will save you a lot of time, I believe. And of course, there is no rational regret that is appropriate when finally making that run, running away from a predator.

Regarding your recent post: amazing insight in your last paragraph. Continuing with the predator reality, it is confusing for a child to feel need and love for a predator, for one. Major confusion for me. How… easy an animal’s life is, I am thinking, to see a predator clearly, as what it is, a predator, nothing more. It would have been very conflicted for an animal to feel the need for that predator to feed it, or hug it.

The last paragraph you wrote has more to it that I want to re-read and think about later, and I will do so, a bit later.

anita